DMB x 2

I don't think I will ever love anyone elses words more than this.

“Take what you can from your dreams, make them as real as anything.”

“I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay”

“You're the love of my life and the breath in my prayers. Take my hand and lead me there.. what I need is you here. I can't forget the taste of your mouth from your lips all the heavens pour out. I can't forget when we are one. With you alone I am free.”

“Celebrate we will for life is short but sweet for certain”

“I could never love again,
So much as i love you”

“Don't lose the dreams inside your head, they'll only be there til you're dead, dream”

"Into your heart I'll beat again"

“See you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around.”

“What I want is what I've not got, and what I need is all around me.”

You're as Strong as Anyone

I love Mrs.Faith.
She's taught me so much, and has helped me so much..and not with just school.

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I wish I could replay our conversation over and over.
I'll always appreciate her so much, and I'm so glad I decided to take this class.
I'm going to be okay...no. I'm going to be better than okay. I'm going to be incredible.


Her Speech to Me:
"You're going to be a nurse, and be the cutest nurse ever. I can see it right now, you being a gorgeous nurse and meeting the guy of your dreams and falling crazy in love and living happily ever after. I can see it, that's your life. You probably think 'I'll never be 26' but you will be one day. But you're going to be awesome! You are going to have a fantastic life. You take everything, take it in, and instead of looking like your upset you do the opposite and become the happiest, bubbliest person. It may come back to get you later, but you're strong. From your hair, to your eyes, to your smile to your personality, you're beautiful inside and out. I'm a people person, I can read people well. And I'm confident with every word I've said."

Granted, we talked about a lot more. But still. How could you not absolutely love the woman after that?
I cried. Honestly. It's one of the nicest things someone has ever said to me.

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grrrrrrrrr
how am I supposed to not care about him? when he texts me every morning and asks if I'm coming down, begging, AND when he texts just randomly!, when he hits me playfully on the behind and nudges me in the arm every second and stares at me all of orchestra and teases (but not for real) all the time, going with me, doing anything I ask, being supportive like no other, etc. how? answer me that.

I'm gonna be okay! Hooray!

Finally!

I have decided that I'm going to be okay. I've been reading this book ("There's a (Slight) Chance I'm Going to Hell") and after she finally made a friend after moving and not knowing anyone for a couple months, I decided that if she can be okay, I can too. I'll make friends wherever I go. I made friends in oceanography, right? I am going to have a couple months with kids my age at NOVA until I finally do the nursing program..and I'm outgoing. If I don't make friends in the beginning NOVA classes? I'll make friends at the nursing program. If not there? I'll make them at work. Everyone always talks about how 'College is where you find your friends for the rest of your life'. No, it's not. When you graduate, someone is going to move, if not all of you. And who say's you'll keep in touch? It's like high school; sure, youll call or email once and a while, but now you have a CAREER. How much harder is THAT? At least at NOVA, I know these people live around here. So I'll have people temporarily. :) I'm gonna be okay! Plus, I talked with my good friend at work (who I'm starting to love, but I can't tell if thats because I love everyone who pay the least bit attention to me) and he was suprised I'd ever been afraid of being lonely because I'm such a good person. And he just..instilled confidence in me again. I'm gonna be okay. :)

Cancun- so far, so good with the parentals! Now I just gotta get Jon to hurry up and freaking talk to his mom...

Valentines Day- Dinner friday with the loves! <3 I'm excited.

My sister and I taught Zoey how to play with a frisbee! She was terrified of them, but now she's all over it! We took her outside (Since it was like a nice spring/early summer day!) and played in the mud and then gave her a bath! haha it was fun.

I'm gonna work out every day this week. Gotta start that habit up again.
I also decided to email everyone I haven't talked to in forever. Or make them cards or something.
Speaking of that, I gotta send my 'penpal' her letter. It's been ready to go for so long. Just gotta get her address from my grandfather. (My penpal is my great great grandmother in MN)

I've narrowed down my list of places to live, thankfully. I'm only down to around 6 or 7 states.

I've thought about renting a room with someone. There are so many ad's for roomates. Maybe I'll start out renting my own apartment and looking for a roomate. I'll be around 21 when I graduate totally and have a career in nursing..hmmm... or maybe HE'LL offer...hmm...

Okay well I'm going to watch Desperate Housewives..or the rest of it.
Big day tomorrow. Ha.

1,2,3,4

Vance. Up there. This picture is so old, I can't even tell you what year. Freshman? 8th grade?
Me and Alyssa make cookies. Wow. Thankfully, it broke after we cooked it.Which, I like to think of that as a metaphor of our relationship. He's done, etc. etc.


I doubt anyone will want to live with me. Want to know why?

1. I leave the toothpaste open sometimes. Eh.
2. I forget to flush the toilet sometimes (never if it's nasty though). I DO refill toilet paper if it runs out when I'm in there.
3. I leave my laundry in a basket at the bottom of my bed until it gets super full. Then I do all my laundry at once. But it usually takes a while, and its unattractive apparently.
4. I do NOT make my bed. Ever. Why waste time? I'm just going to mess it up the same exact way in 10 hours.
5. I sometimes leave a dish in my room for a day or two (never to the point of nasty nasty..though I have done it once).
6. If I worry about something, I talk WAY too much. Actually, I talk to much anyways. And about stupid stuff a lot of the time. I canNOT keep a conversation going in the same direction.




finish later
I'll keep editing from time to time. :)